If you follow me on Twitter / Snapchat / Instagram, you will know I went back to work at the beginning of the month.
Returning to work as a mom for the first time can be very difficult and emotional. There is so much to think about, who will look after the baby when your at work, if it's a creche or childminder are they expensive, if it's a family member or friend can you trust them to look after your precious baby like you have been doing the last X amount of weeks? If you lucky enough to work for yourself, there may come a time later in your babies life, before they hit school age, that you feel you need a few hours in the day to focus on work stuff without the distractions.
Emotionally, there is withdrawal from just it being you and baby to you at work and baby wherever you choose to have him taken care of while your busy earning.
I chose to go back to work as both me and my boyfriend were unemployed and the opportunity came up for me to return to the job I had before my contract ended in September 2014. I found it hard to be a stay at home mom, because where I live you can't just load up the buggy and go for a stroll, you have to pack up the car and drive 10 minutes to the nearest park or safe place to walk. I was gaining weight (went up a stone and a half since having him) more than I'd liked because I was just sitting around eating and not getting much exercise. Even when I would go for walks they would be short because Alex would get fussy or hungry, especially when he's teething. I wasn't happy as a stay at home mom because my frustrations were showing, I was very impatient and I had a short fuse. Now, when I come home from work I leave the stressful day behind and get home to a smiling face who loves to see me, give me a big hug and we play until it's his bathtime/feeding time/bedtime. Even thought we don't have long in the day from Monday to Friday, we enjoy the time we do have a lot more than before, and I have an income that supports us for now.
As I'm only temporary in this position I need to be watchful for permanent positions. It is very important for my family, and me, to have stability. We have a '5 year plan' (lol) which includes both of us working, an extension to the house, an engagement and eventually a wedding. None of these things can happen if we don't have stability. I completely believe job hunting in Ireland is still tough, the recession is still there but the 'figures' show low unemployment so everyone thinks the world is back to normal - it's not! Those unemployed went to college, have trades, worked hard at one time and now can't find anything! It's a joke!
Back to the point, my boyfriend sends me snapchats of Alex during the day which keeps me going. I love seeing him happy face when he's hanging out with his dad.
Alex goes to a local creche twice a week (Tuesday and Thursday). He goes for full days (9am to 5pm). He seems to be getting on great and I'm so proud of my little man and how great he is at adapting. He will be going for 3 days from mid-August. I'm excited for him because he'll develop around other babies his age or close in age, he can play and have fun, they feed him some strange stuff I never thought of (chicken curry) and his dad has some time to sort stuff during the week. The creche looks great and he seems to love it there! My only problem is he seems to be very tired when he gets home - too much excitement I'd say!
I do find it hard to be away from Alex, especially when we spent all day every day together for 7 months (give or take a day or two)! I miss hearing him giggle, and going for walks in the day time, random outings and shopping trips, cuddles and seeing his reaction to new foods and flavours! I know I'll miss milestones because I'm not around but I have to tell myself it's for the best, it is but it's nice :(
Lots of Love