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Sunday, February 20, 2011

My New Blog

Hey all :)

I've decided to keep this page focused on beauty stuff and for all those who like my personal blogs please go to my new page http://memyselfandkathy.blogspot.com

It is a new blog I've created to focus on me, whats going on in my life and personal posts I may randomly feel like doing. Its a way of getting to know me better :)

Friday, February 18, 2011

Never be forgotten...

Today was probably the last day I saw my grandmother alive. I was told yesterday that she had a week to live. She's suffered from Alzheimer's for the past few years, but before Christmas it escalated to her being very poorly. I visited her today with my dad and sister. As I walked into the ward, my three uncles were around her bed, all that was going through my mind was "oh god she's gone, I can't believe I'm going to see her like that". My heart was racing so fast, my uncle was wiping away his tears... I couldn't handle it. When I first saw her I was shocked... she didn't look like the beautiful Nan that I grew up knowing and loving. She didn't have her false teeth in so around her mouth looked caved in, her complexion was very poorly looking, her hair wasn't curled like she liked having it, she couldn't keep her eyes open much and she wasn't comfortable. With my dad, uncles and sister there I didn't get to say goodbye! So here goes, I guess...

"Nana, I love you, I loved how you were never afraid to say what was on your mind, your independence, you were never without your high heels (even on the beach), your jokes about dad and his brothers when they were young, you never forget my birthday, and you were always reminiscent about the good times. It broke my heart when you started to forget things, faces, names, how to take care of yourself. Even when you were sick in hospital you showed me there was still a part of my 'Nana Delia' in there. I love you and always will and I will miss you so much - I have for a while but when your gone, so many people will miss you. Goodbye Nana, I will always remember you"

I never know what to say in awkward situations and thats my best way of trying. Mom took our black coats to the dry cleaners, my brother (he's 17) was asked to carry the coffin along with my dad, his three brothers and uncle. I know things have to be prepared, but I just want everything to STOP... even for a minute just to not think about whats coming... but it keeps spinning around in my head! I still cry when I think about my mom's mom, my 'Nana Kiely'. She passed away 4 January 2008. I love her so much too. She was my godmother too.

I am so lucky to have my boyfriend Daniel. He is amazing and so supportive. Even though he lives an hour away he's there for me in more ways than he knows and its helping me through this hard time. I am so grateful to have him and definitely don't take anything for granted. Thank you babe xx

Friday, February 4, 2011

Why is everything changing?!

This post has nothing to do with beauty...

Recently I found out that my best friend is pregnant!! I am delighted for her, shocked and it's weird but delighted :) She's a strong girl and she'll be OK. I miss her loads because she lives a bit away but we talk when we can. I'm going to be a godmother (again) too :D I'm so excited! It's going to be weird to see her bump. When I found out I went to visit her and she had just started her morning sickness :( Not a great thing really!!

And then I was at my boyfriends house and found out that his best friend is getting engaged. I know her through him... She's 19 next week.. very young. I was in shock. She only knows her boyfriend since September and had been talking about engagement since October :O I am quite shocked to be honest but you can't help who you fall in love with... I am happy for them but think she's still a bit young...

Also, a girl in college with me got engaged at the weekend! Her ring is gorgeous :) She's been with her boyfriend 4 or 5 years. She's 19 in 2 weeks!

It's mad how young these girls are... in the next few years they will grow and change... I certainly did. I was with my ex for nearly 4 years (since I was 16) and I broke up with him when I was 20 nearly 21. I saw my 21st birthday as a turning point for me... I wanted this to be the best year of my life so far! And I grew and changed... I am certainly not the same girl i was when I was with him... I now have a new boyfriend.. he's a 4 years older than me and he's fun loving, easy to talk to and get on with, he cares for me a lot and takes care of me :)

I had a dream that I'd be engaged around the time of my 21st birthday in Rome, Italy and be married and have a child by the time I was 26!! :O But that has changed now so more new dreams to conjure up and life is changing...

new year, new experience and new dreams!! =)